posted by Nabonidus at 7:02 PM
Thursday, December 15, 2005
About Me
- Name: Nabonidus
- Location: San Diego, CA, United States
All-knowing, all-seeing, all-powerful... The one time in my life that I pooted twas like music from the Gods. I wept at the profound beauty of it.
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19 Comments:
Hi Lisa,
it sounds good! I hope you're on your way to feeling better. I'm on a recuperating sick day here myself, just exhausted by the week and a cold I can't quite shake.
Cheers,
AM
God I hear you, it's like I'm dizzy, headachey, cough, head clogged up, and yet I know it could be worse! It's like I'm walking around 1/2 sick, battling it from taking over completely.
It's colder where you are, bundle up and stay warm, and take it easy this weekend! xoxoLisa( heh, I can give a kiss and hug, we're both sick so I don't have to worry about your catching it!lol)
nabonidus,
Improv is always fun. :)
Try making some green tea, but boil some ginger in with the water. That's what I do. I always have a jar of ginger, it's my cure all.... ginger and garlic, anyways.
Get well soon,
Jack
I could make some jokes.;)
But seriously, I've heard that ginger is good - I think I read somewhere that pioneers loved it because it was
excellent for stomache aches. Caused a
warmth in the belly. Thought that was interesting.
Since I'm going to the store any minute, I'm writing this down. I do have green tea, I love that stuff.
I missed honey in my tea yesterday.
Oh yeah, and the improve was fun - I think I grabbed hold of a little riff I can use later down the road.
Thanks, Jack! xoxoLisa
Here's my new mug. A clean, frozen face. I love Bea Bea in this one. I do. It's the best one.
Hey Lisa. Thanks for checking in. I didn't get on yesterday because my drummer and I recorded our demo album. It sounds pretty nice, but now I have to figure out how to post the songs, do you know how??
Anyway, you sound extremely cool here. I like the song you posted before this one a lot, too. The whole lead thing is definitely working for you! Sounding great.
xoxox
- claire -
Wow! You recorded a demo album? How does one do that, without running into
sleazy producers like Ted? I want to be on fox Rox but I don't have a demo or anything. Pisses me of to think of it because as you know, I do have a lot of originals, as well as having covers. shit. Actually, this has been part of what's depressing me lately.
Ah, well. :/
Hey, Claire, I was going to mention :
work on your leads. Remember? It really is becoming like a vanishing or declining musical art form. A lot of musicians don't even do leads at all.And can't. People that should know.It's important to be able to just let loose and go where it takes you. It's a good outlet for what's inside. xoxoLisa
I will try to work on my leads. Hopefully I'll get better.
We didnt record at a studio or anything, we have an 8-track. lol, i dont think anyone would want us.
xoxo
Oh yeah, that's right - you'd mentioned the 8-track before! Cool!
And girl, you WILL get better at the leads if you practice.When in doubt, bend it out. lol If you hit a sour note, bend it till it sounds right.JKlol
But that does help.:)
xoxoLisa
HAHA! Alright, thanks for the advice!! I love bending, but I can only do the lead stuff if it's already been written lol. I need to work on improv.
xoxo
- claire -
Thought you could use some cheering up. I am going through a personal hell right now and perhaps in being positive here and lending you my friendship and support I will find strength in dealing with my own issues!
I was told you were down...not sure where you posted about it but wanted to remind you that I am here for you and to keep your head high! Remember you are a survivor and it will take a while before you regain all your strength! Took my 4 years or so! Domestic abuse is brutal to the mind!
See you in the chat tomorrow?? I want an update young lady as to how you are!! (hehe I said young lady! LOL)
Take care,
XXMolly
Hi Molly,
You are right, I realize. I don't like thinking of being a survivor but if that's not a survivor, I don't know what is. Putting it in that context makes me feel better. Makes me feel like I'm progressing as I should be, then.
But thank you for recognizing it and reminding me.It IS brutal on the mind.
I almost wonder when I write lengthy posts, am I afraid people are going to hit me? The way I always apologize for everything, is this what I'm afraid of? Being hit? Having to pay some consequence,
you guys are going to be mean and punish me somehow?
Your post is very interesting,it's making me question things.
Heh, and I liked the young lady reference - you really know how to cheer a woman up!LOL :D
xoxolisa
Hi Lisa. Just sending a smile your way.
: )
Thanks for sharing your heart with a bunch of strangers who are really not strangers anymore.
Ok, a hug too!
Thanks, PT Fan! I always meant to tell you, I like your little profile pic, it's so cuuuute!
And you're welcome on the other,you know. I hope it's good for others, too. If they get more comfortable about opening up, or if they get inspired, then it's worth it! :)
Hugs back at you, xoxoLisa
Dear Lisa,
I read what you wrote at Simon's, and I want you to know that I'm glad you're alive, too. Really.
Worked it out so that I can see the broadcast today. hurrah!
Will you, too?
Your new profile photo is gorgeous.
You ARE a survivor. I am too and being a survivor (whether abuse, a bad marriage, a suicide attempt, a tragedy) makes us more able to appreciate life, I think.
Love and hugs,
Brina
This sounds great! For your cold - there's nothing like a Nova Scotia "hot toddy" to cute all stuffed heads and sore throats - 1) hot water,
2) a bit of lemon juice,
3) some honey for sweetness,
4) and rum!
I don't know the exact measurements - I just do it to my liking (usually more honey than lemon juice for my sweet tooth!) :o) My Gramma swore by this remedy, and so does my Mom. Let me tell you, a couple of those for a couple of nights, and it really helps a sore throat...plus, the rum effect ain't half bad too!
Hey Lisa, I read Simon's blog and I had no idea you went through such a hard time. I really feel for you. I just want you to know that I'm here for you too, if you need to talk or need a friend. It's awful to feel down or sad (we all do now and the, right?), but the best advice is to look for positive things in everything, however small. Don't be afraid to share things with the bloggers - I think we are a supportive bunch! :)
Aw, thanks Brina and Mary Beth!
That's what this has been about - talking about it so that I don't just go away and be quiet and disappear off the earth, anonymously.
I had to learn how to reach out in those moments.Normally I'll talk to anyone, anytime. But when I clam up and go away, that's not a good sign.
So I'm doing ok now.
But there really is a HUGE stigma
attached to depression, and any other mental issue that one might have.
So that one suffers in silence rather than try to talk about it.
But to go through something like what I went through and come out the other side, WOW.Is it any wonder that I seem to be fearless to a lot of people? lol
Maybe I am.The doctors that patched me up thought so. Stupidly fearless.lol
BTW, when i said I was in the hospital for almost a month, that was the regular hospital, it was that serious.i kept amost dying, even weeks after what happened.In fact,
It was even a week before i even regained consciousness in the first place.
I'm lucky my body isn't messed up a whole lot worse. And I can still have kids. Weird.
I've thought about writing about this but I dunno if I'm quite ready yet. Butthanks you guys for the words, support and encouragement.
xoxoxoLisa
p.s. I have to say this : I would never have done this if I had kids.
I can tell you with certainty.I get mad about that. There's a story there, too. Involving my mother.
But for another time. I would NEVER
have done that to my kids. I know what it feels like to be the kid
blamingthemselves. That's the most fucked up thing you can do to a kid,
if you are the parent. Hands down.
Anyway, sorry for the rant there.
But I had to make that clear. If anything, NOT having kids was part of my depression.
My mother in law suffers (we think) from some kind of mental illness where she is incapable of having normal relationships with people and hides from reality in her house, but she won't talk about it, and won't get help. I wish she would - she would be a much happier person, I'm sure (she is totally unhappy - you can tell, even though she won't talk about it - she is a rather miserable person to be around). I don't get along with her much at all because she's been very awful to me and my husband also, but I have to say that I know she doesn't really realize what she does, so in that part, even though I don't like her, I feel sorry for her anyway.
I'm glad to hear that you wouldn't have done that if you had kids. I always say that kids never deserve to have their parents' issues or problems visited upon them, though that do get the brunt o all that crap a lot. I hope you find someone fabulous and have great kids someday - all your experiences will make you a stronger and healthier mother that your kids will be lucky to have! :)
I'm glad you heard me on that, Mary Beth.
In fact that was a big part of the problem.I wanted kids, and I was starting to realize that it was not going to happen. And I didn't want to have kids with my ex.
The nurses were weird to me until they found out I didn't have kids. I think they had attitude about that stuff.
I remember 3 nurses around me when they were about to roll me into the Cat scan tube.
One of them made a remark, and I went off!I'd been in the hospital for about 3 weeks at that point, and we were familiar with each other, I thought.
One made a snide remark,question- something about " So you're kids are living with you?" The way she said
it, she was one of those older bitchy nurses, totally sour. You knew where she was going with it.
And I went off, said "you think I'd do something like this if i had kids, you bitch?" And started crying.
Made her feel really bad, and I'm glad. She didn't know anything about me, and was going to try and make me feel bad about that? I know she got talked to about it. I've got tubes coming every which way, arms nose, and she's getting me all upset.
Overall everyone was great, though. But the nurses, they have a real issue with this apparently. Suicide when you have children. God knows what they've witnessed on it. :(
The horrible thing about getting counseling, is that you wind up realizing how sooo many people need help but aren't getting it!!!! Like your mother -in- law. My ex could
use some counseling. My ex compulsive liar friend that I had to stop being around needed counseling badly.
I had depression, but jeez. A lot of people need counseling, most people
I think! Probably because of how much pain there is in life.
Anyhoo. :) xoxoLisa
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