RIP David Carradine

December 8, 1936 - June 4, 2009
You will be missed. :(

The Mysterious Bejeweled Thingamabob -What Is This?

I found something beautiful the other day, glittering in the sun. No one was around. At first I thought it might be a very expensive pen. The jewels (from a distance) looked as if they could be real. I pocketed the rather weighty item, went on my way.
Little did I know!
My first stop was a friend at the bank. I figured "H" would quickly tell me what it was. If anyone would know, it would be H. I was wrong. And now H is also very curious about the object. I asked B, and J, and L, and M, and K, and on and on. No one knew.
And now 9 people are also very curious to know: What is this Mysterious Bejeweled Doohicky Thingamabob? It appears to be well-made, though the diamonds and sapphires are not real( aw,shucks;). There is black enameling between the silver inlay. The only thing I can guess is perhaps "calligraphy pen with tip broken off."
I pose the question to you: What is this?

Dec 1991 - Sept 23 , 2008

Beloved Gee in her favorite place (in my arms). She got to leave this world in her favorite place. Hers was a blessed life from start to finish. I miss her very much:(

Here I am!

Seems like every time I post now something happens to contradict the cheerful tone.
To instantly render my post obsolete. I swear I'm building a phobia about posting.:(

Lotta stuff going on recently, upsetting things that I'm trying to overcome. Taxes and all that is involved with having to file married. There's a lot more to that one,
I'm sure you all can imagine... I'd better concentrate on trying to catch up at others' blogs rather than trying to say more.
A nice coincidence recently: Happened to be at Pete's for the 1st time in a long while, remembering something about a link for a free T - I want that T . Happened to catch a post that was brand new, at least there weren't yet any comments and the time indicated it was brand new. So I said hello, sort of. ;)

But I fear it gave the idea I've been online much more than I have been. If I *had* been online, I would have been blogging the people that have actually been blogging me! I wouldn't just write Pete without writing anyone else, yet this must be the impression I am giving these days! I know people have not seen me anywhere else. It's true I don't lurk at the forums or anywhere - I just don't have it in me to keep my big mouth shut ( or fingers tied away from keyboard?) when lurking. ;)
Anyway, I've missed posting about a lot of things...the passing of people that brought light to the world. RIP M.R. and C.H. (to name a couple). You are gone but not forgotten.
And neither are any of my friends - you are not forgotten! I miss you.

A Door Closes....

...a window opens?
I hope so!

A lot has gone on since I last posted anything. I didn't realize I'd been away from the blog for that long!
The divorce is finally finished. It was distinctly unpleasant for both of us. Understatement, that.;)
I was surprised at how unhappy he'd seemed that final day in court. He actually seemed more devastated!Was it an act? An award worthy performance? Didn't seem so.
I figured he'd be thrilled at my lack of fight, my lack of greed, my lack of lawyer. The fact that it had all been so clean and I'd kept it to financial matters only, and even deliberately kept out things I wasn't supposed to know about (but did) financially, in order to end it quickly. I didn't care anymore, I was walking away from the fight. He knew that. So why did he seem so sad, upset?
I wondered about that for too long afterwards.

So it's taken time to get over it. The longest chapter of my life. The childhood sweetheart aspect made it worse. These are the people that help form us.
I didn't want to write or communicate for a long time because I felt too sad and bitter. Plus I was exhausted. I still feel tired...

But just lately I am starting to feel that I might be waking from an epic bad dream. Spring is here.
Winter and my marriage are past now. The air outside is sweet. I walk along and think:
"Oh please, let this tiny feeling of hope grow!
Don't let it be a fleeting thing that dies too soon before it even really lives!"
Because I do have some hope now. :)

And I also *hope* all is well for everyone here! Thanks for not forgetting about me!:) xoxo

Happy Holidays Everyone!

I just wanted to put that up while it's still technically Christmas. It is here,
anyway. Merry Christmas! Sorry I've too busy to reply yet.:P xoxoxo

What I've Been Up To (among other things)...

No seriously, check this out. Give it a chance. The whole thing.
I was hard on myself during this video, but after I watched it, I realized.
Practice makes perfect. This kicks ass. :)
But I'm sorry that I've been rudely reclusive. Problems, money and otherwise.
Also I flat out don't have the money for Pete's blog. His new blog wasn't good timing for me, financially...
Not blogging anyone did wind up being a creatively productive time for me. :)
I am sorry, though, for not keeping in touch, returning concerned emails. I didn't realize it had been that long since I'd blogged anyone, or even posted something to say that I was ok! No excuses.
I need to try and be better about emailing people, at the least. :(

Did you watch the video, a premiere of my original finished song Soylent Blues?
Do you plan on leaving a comment, or a hello?
Do you see the little metal can below the screen with the slot on the top of it?
Please deposit 2 quarters into the slot.
Hehehe...just kidding.
I couldn't resist. ;)