In the "It's too damned hot" vein, I was playing guitar in a disinterested way. Actually, there's bit's o' Santana and Clapton in there, and maybe even Lindsey Buckingham, not sure. You might not be able to tell. :)
I was jamming in a very sloppy, half-assed way. It made me happy. That's my point. This is what playing guitar is about. Having fun, healing yourself. I was sad when I picked up the guitar a little while ago, but then I started having fun. The video is awful, it wasn't meant for anyone to see except that it's turned out funny. It cheered me up for no reason.Hopefully it will cheer you, too. But it's terrible. It's meant to make ye smile, but it's almost four minutes long...proceed with caution.

Too Damned Hot...

It's just been too damned hot lately, which is why I haven't been on the computer as much. I've been trying to catch up here and there, but with the sweating and heat fogging up my glasses, it's been difficult. Plus there's the crankiness factor. People get cranky when the temperature goes above a certain degree. So I don't want to find myself being unfairly snappish when it's really the heat making me this way.

Shit, and in fact, the phone just rang and I have to go out in the world again now. I have been so busy lately. It's been keeping me from getting toooo down anyway. But at the same time I haven't been able to blog as much as I want to.
You all have been helping me so much. THANK YOU for being here for me. And I hope you are all having a great summer!
*Quasi-happy update* I just got back from the doctor's office, I'd had to go in because of my back. It's really bothering me. Wasn't going to mention that, but I have been suffering with bad lower back and leg pain lately. Sciatica. Hurting bad to sit up. Anyway, the nurse took one look at me and said "You've lost weight!Looks good!"
So that was nice to hear! I guess it IS showing, after all! Remember, I'd gained 20 pounds last year when I was so heartbroken. Also, I was sick with pneumonia for many months. First with pneumonia, then with the antibiotic they gave me, it poisoned me. That kicked my ass! Don't ever get pneumonia, haha :). It isn't that I gained weight while having pneumonia, it's more that I gained weight after I started healing but before I was strong enough to really be very physical. Wasn't hungry for anything but ice cream. That's all I could stand to eat, but it put 20 pounds on!
Anyway, it was nice that the nurse noticed. But you all noticed first, actually. :)
Thanks.

I've Lost 22.5 Pounds! :D

Granted, I had some help from my nerves being shot recently, but I've lost the 20 pounds that I'd gained last year!
Let's see, calculating when I first began trying to lose the weight...4, 5 months ago? So that would average to what, a few pounds a month? Perfect! I noticed a slow but steady loss, ending in a bigger loss this week. Actually, I should re-weigh myself. It was last night that I weighed myself...22.5 pounds! Woohoo!!! :D :D :D :D :D 22.5!!!
I wasn't perfectly thin to begin with, so that 20 I gained last year was the last thing I'd needed. And I need to lose more still. As it is I'm now confident enough to wear a bikini top and cutoffs. I'll never be a twig, so I'm not trying for perfection. And I'll never wear a thong, so I don't have to worry about that.Hehe.:)
Well, anyway. I'm not perfect but I'm happy about my recent 22.5 pound weight loss!Yeah!!!

Had blogger problems all day. Kept trying to log on but finally gave up and played guitar for awhile. Experimented a bit more with cam tracking, layering. I get a kick out of it, for some reason. Which is why I'm posting this here instead of my other blog, it's a re-creation of a video I once posted here. I was experimenting with layering using my webcam, and I played this same original. A certain friend had inquired how I was doing it, this wecam effect. I was fiddling with my glasses while the guitar was playing, etc. Heheh. ;) The memory tickled me,
So this is an update on that oldie. I need to add more words, I realize. I just really like these rockin' chords. Hope everyone is doing great.:)

Chicky-Woo Bath Day
The picture doesn't tell the tale of his tantrums. I'm so physically scarred from previous baths. I got off easy this time, to the point where I could even get a photo or two.
Actually, I wasn't playing around this time. I was fed up with his prior bad behavior and put a sock on his head before I did anything. Sock on head, bathtub. Just a thin, white sock.
When I took the sock off of his head, he was already in the tub. Later, he started to act up again ( get really mean, despite my sympathy and gentleness). So I put the sock right back on his head. He got the idea, I removed the sock, and we were able to finish the bath fairly quickly.
This pic is the papoose-pic. He was exhausted, we both were. So he let me hold him for a long time, and put up with my taking pictures.

Things Got Worse ( yet they seem like they might be getting better again)...

Got really depressed recently and withdrew from everyone. When I get profoundly depressed, this is what I do. I stop talking. I withdraw from the world. I've missed you all.
I'm trying to pull out of it now. Thanks to all of you that wrote me! I heard the concern, read between the lines so -to- speak. I appreciate you so much!xoxoxoxo
Things are looking up this weekend, I have to admit.